i choose not to spend time with people..
like adam..
or chris..
or that blonde girl..
not because i dont trust myself..
but even just thinking in such a way
about someone in my presence
builds this ball of guilt
in the back of my throat..
that being said
latly when people hug me
rare... however..
i find myself pretending its israel
and other forms of affection..
just make me think about him..
im completely oblivious to the kind of attention im getting from boys these days..
many people have made comments
just unintrested i guess..
head over heels inlove it seems..
he's all i miss...
